Hmm...I've been really down lately. I don't know why either, i think I'm just sick of the same thing day after day. my life is rather boring. i wake up between 1 and 2, get bitched at, eat, lay around...sometimes tan or stop at someone's house, then go to work...doing the same thing every day...calling the same people, getting the same leads, taking the same breaks, then 8 come around and i either go home to sleep or go to the Y. that's good when i go to the Y because it gives me time to free my mind of a lot of stuff. then i go hang out w/ "friends" whoever it may be. usually its the same people doing the same thing, which was cool at first, but doing the same thing, sitting at the same place really gets old. then when they bitch at you because u don't feel like going to the same place as always, u want to stop by another friends house to see people u haven't seen in months, even a year...well that's shitty. oh well...hopefully she'll get over it because it would be stupid to throw such a great thing away over something stupid. i cant wait for vacation, i really need this. i cant spend any money though until we go though. Its going to be difficult. I had a really good talk with Jackie last night, she's a sweetie. I feel bad for her though because she's having boy problems similar to things vie been through. I've hope I helped her a little though, because her and her boyfriend are both great. Zeb cant seem to comprehend the "we cant spend any money till vacation!" he called me and asked me to go get some lunch, I told him no, and why and he's like well I was only going to say cheddars or something! Umm...I wont even go to taco bell, but cheddars is ok..hmm? well, I've been bitching a lot so I'm going to go tan or shower, do something somewhat productive.

~Linds

Hello hello hello well...its been a while again. ive just been working and enjoying my cold, wet summer. havent really done much of anything lately...went to the Y last night. i was happy about that, im going again tonight:) a really good friend of mine moved to florida two days ago, im pretty sad about that. he was supposed to call me when he got there, but i havent heard from him. im going to see him after we go to hilton head. i miss him a lot. i really hope that everything works out for him, he deserves that. on another subject, its weird how things change without you even realizing it. its like one day you wake up and ur whole world has been flipped upside-down. and how people change, its like u really think u know someone and then all of a sudden u really get to know them and realize their just another compulsive liar trying to be "real". people can suck my ass. right now im really realizing who my true friends are, and how few of them i have, but i love all of them dearly. on other news...i have a spider bite on the inside of my elbow and its really creeping me out. well, im going to go sleep some more...i woke up at 2:30pm today, opps:) time for my prework nap!!

Love, L<3

Weird IM of the week: MservNkd4u:  good afternoon ma'am, michael here from ft wayne, any interest in an older, part time, for real, for free, male house servant ?yeah, that one was a little freaky.. 

im pretty sick right now, ive got cramps, and a really bad cold and a fever, i have to go into work soon too because i called off saturday. i had an awesome weekend besides being sick. friday night i got trashed at jessicas w/ a few friends, that was awesome, although there were a few petty big love triangles going on there, it was pretty amusing, and i got what i wanted, jess!! lol, KIDDING!! all im saying is that the night ended well...

saturday i went to toledo (maumee) to see matrix reloaded with mim, john and laura...holy shit that movie kicked ass!! it was funfun, then i went to seths to talk to zeb..that didnt go so well, so i walked to mims, (laura found me and picked me up 1/2 way...my hero!) and we talked again, he took me home ,and all was "better" but i started getting sick that night, then i woke up sunday feeling like hell, and it keeps getting worse. oh well, im going to go try and eat again!!

love,L

wow..its only been a week and a half since my last entry, but it feels like soo much longer! a lot has happened since then too, still unpacking!! but lets see...ive been hanging out with a lot of friends i havent seen for a while, zeb and i dont really talk anymore (long story...lindsay's very pissed) dont talk to kevin anymore, developed a stange crush on an old friend, but thankfully im pretty sure im over it, working at BR and bread kneeds. oh...thats about it. but it wasnt until recentally i realized how many friends a lost because of zeb. it was sad because i would hardly talk to anyone anymore and we just stopped hanging out and stuff. oh, and zeb...well, were done as cold leftover thanksgiving turkey (if that makes ANY sense?!) all i wanted was for him to show me a little bit of responsibility...so what does he do?  doesnt show up for work 2 days in a row, smokes (pot) and drinks a lot (along w/ who knows what other drug knowing the people hes been hanging out with) and has stayed out all night, every night for atleast the past week, probably 2...if i were his parents id take thier car back (they knew he was drinking and driving) and telling if hes not going to come home at night, dont bother coming home at all tell him to take his shit and leave because frankly, thats the only way hes going to learn, if his parents stick to thier threats. i dont know, its a bunch of bullshit. its really weird because like, the othernight we went to walmart and i tried kissing him to see if there was anything there anymore...all i felt was a little saddness. dont get me wrong, i still love him, but i dont think im in love with him. i don t know how i can be. hes so immature, and all i ever do is worry about him, i need to just tell him to fuck off and not talk to him anymore, thats what his mom told me to do, becuase she said i deserve a lot better than him. I dont know how they deal w/ him. i cant anymore...grrrrrrrr.....so anyway, im going to get ready for work, i need a shower. ill probably post again tonight sometime, bye!

lindsay

well, today was the big move!! it wasnt too bad, but i have sooo much stuff!! im so happy schools over for the year, but i have so much to do at home, plus i have to find a second (maybe third?) job...well, im sleepy and im going to go look for food!! just a quick hi!!:)

Linds<3